...Temporaily Unsure

...Temporaily Unsure...
         ...Of my future....
         ...Of my friends...
         ...Of my trust...
I just wish I knew where my life is going...

I like someone....someone who is amazing and kind....

Wish I could share it, but I don't know if I should....
Everytime I have ever wanted to share a secret with someone, they go and blow it by telling someone else my secret. I wish I could trust people more....

I wish for many things, yet I know God is in control....I just wish I could know what He is thinking...I have prayed that often enough....But what if we start losing hope that He will answer us? I haven't had a lot of my prayers answered, whither it was yes or no. Unless it means maybe, which for some, have been a long time for a wait. I just hate to think that I am the only one that feels this way...

I wish I could love myself, for I do not think I do...Wow, did I really just write that? I honestly think I don't....If I loved myself, wouldn't I stop doubting myself? Wouldn't I stop over-eating so I can be a healthy weight? If I loved myself, wouldn't I trust God to take care of everything? Maybe I have just fooled myself all my life. How can I be sure? How can anyone be sure?