Selfish

Is it ok to feel like your roomie is treating you different then their other friends?

You feel excluded.....You feel hurt....But you dont want to feel that way.........It sucks....

Tonight

Tonight I am pretty sure changed my life....


Started off pretty well, with working and everything like that...then I went to rehearsal which wasn't too bad...but then I came back to the dorm, and that changed everything....

My RA is the most amazing person on this Earth. I think God put her there for me.

She helped me to understand myself a little better and how my way of thinking sometimes isn't what it should be. She helped me to see that sometimes I just need to forgive and forget.

I'm not so sure I want to transfer now...I am currently in my mod lounge and hanging with 6 other girls...And I am thrilled that I have had no sleep.

I wish my mom was alive....I could totally tell her about lots of things...I miss her...

But with the help of my crazy roommate who is acting like she is on drugs or had been given laughing gas, or drunk....and others....I will survive

CRAP

So....I feel like crap.


Everyone treats me different then someone else.

I can ask them the same thing or ask for something and i will either get a weird look or there will be awkward silence. i feel so alienated. i hate not having friends here. wish i could go home and have people tell me that its ok. i hate not having friends here.

Betrayed

What do you do when a friend betrays you?

When you are nice and you feel like your friends, but then she turns around and totally ignores you...tells you one thing and does another....basically telling you that she doesn't want to hang out with you.

What do you do when you feel this way but you don't want to tell her because you are afraid to lose a friend.

One of the only ones you got?

When she trys to keep things a secret and then lies when you ask about it?

How do you fix something like this?

When all you want to do is yell and scream and cry and throw things at her but you don't because you are too nice?

How do I tell this friend how I feel without coming off snobbish?

No one can help me.

Feelings

Why can I tell an almost complete stranger how I feel but when I stongly feel something I can't tell the one person i want to?

Life and health

I hate feeling abnormal.

Why can't I be normal like everyone else is? Why do I have to be the one to suffer? I hate my body right now. I absolutely hate it.

...Temporaily Unsure

...Temporaily Unsure...
         ...Of my future....
         ...Of my friends...
         ...Of my trust...
I just wish I knew where my life is going...

I like someone....someone who is amazing and kind....

Wish I could share it, but I don't know if I should....
Everytime I have ever wanted to share a secret with someone, they go and blow it by telling someone else my secret. I wish I could trust people more....

I wish for many things, yet I know God is in control....I just wish I could know what He is thinking...I have prayed that often enough....But what if we start losing hope that He will answer us? I haven't had a lot of my prayers answered, whither it was yes or no. Unless it means maybe, which for some, have been a long time for a wait. I just hate to think that I am the only one that feels this way...

I wish I could love myself, for I do not think I do...Wow, did I really just write that? I honestly think I don't....If I loved myself, wouldn't I stop doubting myself? Wouldn't I stop over-eating so I can be a healthy weight? If I loved myself, wouldn't I trust God to take care of everything? Maybe I have just fooled myself all my life. How can I be sure? How can anyone be sure?