Stupid Purple Monster Eater

So, let's just say that I feel like that one character from that one stupid stupid song, "That One Eyed One Horned Flying Purple People Eater."

All of you might think that I am on something that is making my mind just freeze up but its true, isn't it? You feel like no one can understand or that you feel like no one likes you just because you are you? Thats how I'm feeling right now. I cant explain it too well, but it just doesnt make me feel right. Why did I choose a college over 800 miles away from home? Did I think I could survive? Okay

Life has definetely turned my thoughts into mush and my emotions into such a turmoil that I have no clue how to get it turned around. Every five seconds a friend of mine says that I should date a certain guy or that since a guy waved at me he likes me. Is this middle school or what? I thought we were "mature" (and I use it loosely because from all the laughing me and ELYSE do, we might not be considered mature by some people). Lol. But honestly, so many things here have been drama this, and drama that, and even though I am in the fall drama, I dont want any DRAMA! Golly Poop. Oh wait, thats Elyse's catch phrase. but I gues what I am trying to say is that I have no exact clue why I feel the way I do. I just have this nagging insecurity and that my only friend that I ever want to hang out with is Elyse. Not that she is a bad person or anything, but when she is gone or I'm left alone with a mutual friend, i feel upset that she isnt there or that me and that mutual friend dont get along, It hurts. I think I depend a lot on her and I dont want to do that. It wouldnt be good for either of us.